Feeling vs Discipline

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Mind is a complex organ, it debates itself, it believes itself, it adores itself, it belittles itself!!

It’s always a love-hate relationship the brain has itself.

Its an age old debate, whether you need discipline to succeed , nah nah you need motivation to achieve greatness otherwise you simply follow orders.

Both – discipline & motivation are the products of the same complicated confounded brain.

So what is the answer?

I have read so many theories that “trying to feel like doing stuff” versus “doing it irrespective of your feeling”, and so many motivational quotes but I think I found the answers within me.

I’m reminded of my school days when I wouldn’t “feel” like going to school BUT I would have to because my parents said so!!

When I would have to eat green leafy vegetables irrespective of what I “felt” because I didnt have a choice or even a sense of control over my own life.

As a result , when i grew older, CHOICE was my cause of rebel!!

I like the fact that I got to decide if I wanted to eat something or if I didn’t want to go somewhere or that I could sleep as late as 2 pm on a Saturday/Sunday afternoon and I didn’t have to obey anybody other than my awesome self !

As a result I ate too much,exercised too little, slept on ungodly hours, forgo any sense of responsibility, dumped my societal conduct into the dustbin, talked too much, listened too less,created too much waste, saved too little, partied way too much, meditated way too less all because I had a CHOICE and I felt like it!!

AND then one fine bengaluru morning, came a wake up call.

The world had moved ahead, way ahead of me & my feelings.

My Dreams, aspirations,goals seemed so distant from me and all that near was a hangover, pre-mature ageing, piling up credit card bills, fat bulging out from all unpleasant places and most importantly – a tired soul and a defeated spirit!

All because of giving into feelings – in my specific case, selfish,thoughtless,aimless,disrespectful feelings.

THE INTERVAL.

After some soul searching,not caving -in to ‘feelings’ and moderate meditation, I came face-to-face with DISCIPLINE.

My guide, my light at the end of a tunnel & then came the payback.

-Wake up 7 a.m no matter what

-Eat home cooked food 6 times a week like your life depended on it.

-Stop consuming alcohol even if somebody else paid for it.

-Exercise minimum 1 hour regularly whether the Sun shined, sky rained or snow befell

And for some weird,vague reason, this unknotted all the seemingly complicated knots in my head.

All the time freed up, all the excess fat melted away, the fog started to lift up and then the road to building my dreams into reality became clearer.

It’s still a challenge, because old habits die hard!!

And old patterns domake their way time and again like an old creeper climbing up and up.

but DISCIPLINE is the sword that keeps the darkness at bay.

All in all, I’m way too young to preach anyone anything but for all the struggling souls, defeated spirits and crushed dreams out there – its time to get up, stand up & roar again and with DISCIPLINE on your side, there is no GOLIATH that you cannot defeat.

DISCIPLINE is the strong, supple, underdog that needs to be awakened, there is no mountain too big for you to conquer, no well too deep to swim and no space too vast to explore

With that note, I bid goodbye for now, hopefully sowing a seed of the feeling of DISCIPLINE.